I Hate Myself

I hate myself and how I feel.
How I crave your touch and the sound of your voice.
I go crazy with my fantasies of you.
I hate myself
but, I can't hate you.
I want to be good
and I try so hard but,
I dream of you
and I dream of me.
I dream of things that will never be.
I hate myself because I can't make it stop.
I want to be loyal
and I know that I should
but I'm so sick and tired
of always being good.

I wrote this about a year ago and now I found a song that vibes with my poem.