I Awake

In love, I thought, no one could control me.
The very love I saught caught me in a trap where I was blinded by the illusion of security. 
I could not see, nor understand, what was spoken to me.
Today I wake with fresh eyes and see what has been kept hidden from me.
Life will never be the same.

Heartbreak

"If it was this easy for you then why don't you leave when I asked you to?" she asked, drying her tears with the side of her palm.

"Because I didn't have to before" he told her taking a step towards her. "Because I didn't want to."

"Then what has changed now?" she asked her eyes burning through him, searing his soul.

"I have to",  his gaze dropping allowing a piece of hair to fall in front of his face and hide his eyes. He didn't wanna look at her. He didn't want to see the pain that he was about to inflict.

"Why?" She pleaded, "I thought you lo--- cared about me?"

She couldn't even say it. She didn't know. She couldn't know. She was too good for him in his past was catching up with him quick. He didn't want to hurt her but it was the only way.

She didn't know the real him. She wouldn't have loved him if she knew the real him. So he was protecting her. He would never be happy. Not without her but he would never put her in any danger. So he told her the only thing that would make her hate him. The only saying that would make her stop caring.

Destiny's Mission

My name is Destiny and I was sent to this world 5,267 years ago. I have been here this long because I have yet to be born.

I know my mission is to save the world but I am not sure how much longer I will be able to wait before made mission fails before it ever had a chance to begon.

I am conscious of everything around me, though no one even knows that I am here. I am ready to begin my physical life in this world although I am stuck waiting.

Breaking Free

Breaking Free

I will miss you but it's only because you were like a drug for me.

I knew you weren't good for me and I still wanted and craved you. You ruined my life like any other addiction, ripped me apart so that I could put myself back together.

I wish that we were meant to be more than what we are but, knowing that we are not.

I ask, NO I DEMAND that you give me what is rightfully mine. My heart. I want my sanity back but, with you holding my heart I will always think of you. I want to be clear, I am not asking for it back. I am demanding it back.

If you fight me on it, I will fight back and I know that it is a part of what turns you on but, know that I am not fighting for you. I am fighting for ME. I deserve love and you will and cannot give it to me.

This is the last time you will ever hear from me. I am never going to put myself around you again. You thrive causing others pain and I abhor that about you. You could be something but you choose to stay in squalor. I won't even give you my sympathy. This is your choice so you deserve it

No Longer Yours,

 

My Love

Stand Your Ground

Skies of Grey
On a cloudy day

Gusts of wind
Blow my way.

I hold strong.
Standing my ground

Listening to the wind
And it's howling sound.

Screeching it's displeasure
at my rock solid stance

Then the leaves rush in
And start to dance

Bringing with it, an uplifting kind of energy.
I went from being tense to feeling carefree.

I lifted my hands and reached out to the sky.
From my lips I began to sing a lullaby.

The wind quiets down,
lulled and pacified.

Tarot Box Project Relationship Spread

 The sketches I did for the Relationship Spread.

This one represents

How you see him
How he sees you.

  This one represents

What you want from the relationship
What he wants from the relationship.

  This one is for

Where you think the relationship is going
Where be thinks the relationship is going

My Tarot Box Project

 Past is gone, nothing you can do to change it. That may see cold but the present is ever changing. Life is how you make it. You can focus a bright future or stay in the distant past, remaining stuck and never moving forward. This is my spread for PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE.  I have another side of the box to work on. So another layout to be posted soon.